'˜I lost all emotions and was totally fearless'
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David Mealey, 54 from east Belfast, a non commissioned officer, served in the Royal Irish Regiment 1983-2006, touring Kosovo, Bosnia and Iraq. The 2003 Holy Cross riots in Belfast were “a real eye opener” but the biggest challenge for him was when one of his young soldiers took his own life on tour.
“As far as we were aware this kid was one of the best kids we had, a top soldier. That was one of the most challenging things in my life,” he said.
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“So nothing was important to me anyone. I went to work abroad on private security convoys in Iraq and Afghanistan.
“I had no feelings. I could not have cared less if I got back from a mission. I was fearless, it was absolutely incredible but I thought that was just normal.”
His family told him he had changed, which he could not believe. He was given a diagnosis of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder — which he still does not really accept “because it is a stigma of weakness”.
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Hide AdVarious psychiatrists tried to help, but what really worked was “speaking”.
A friend referred him to Robert McCartney at Newtownards veterans charity Beyond the Battlefield.
“He told me I was not the only one. What made a huge difference was speaking to all the other soldiers who have the same problem. A soldier understands.”